Dreaming & Doing

Something has changed inside of me. I have a much deeper level of reflection than before.
Before what? I'm not sure.
Perhaps kids, or being a stay-at-home mom, or maybe even before I lived in Colorado.

I can't exactly tell you when it happened, but something has changed inside of me, and my desire to make the best of what is to come has taken over the desire to make the same goal and resolutions that I make every year.

At the beginning of the year my Pastor challenged our church to pray that God would reveal a word to each person for 2015. It didn't take much prayer before I felt God impressing the word "action" on my heart. It didn't also take much reflection before I knew exactly what He meant by that word.

Keep dreaming, but start doing.

I could hear the still, small voice of God saying, " I have created you to be a dreamer and doer. You have a very specific gifting. Stop only thinking about what you could do with that gifting, and start doing it."

And just has God's voice echoed through my mind I found myself listening to this song on repeat.

 "Called Me Higher" // All Sons & Daughters 

I could hold on to who I am and never let you change me from the inside.

I could be safe here in your arms, and never leave them. 

Never let these walls down. 

But you have called me higher, you have called me deeper. 

And I will go where you will lead me Lord.

The words speak to my soul. They have become my prayer.

Because time is passing me by. My kids are getting bigger. Jonathan and I are getting older. And for crying out loud it is already mid February! And I don't want to be a person who only thinks about what could be. I want to be a person who savors every moment. I want to be a person who takes full advantage of every opportunity. I want to be a person who serves others, loves well, an and uses every gift that God has entrusted me with. I want to go on adventures. I want to show up when needed, before I am even asked. I want to lead people closer to God through the way I choose to dream and do. I want to be a person of action.

Mom Bliss

It is almost 10am on Wednesday.
Macy is baking cookies in her kitchen.
Piper is taking a nap.
I am sitting on the couch drinking coffee, looking at my computer.
I am also savoring this moment of "mom bliss".

This is mom bliss, because these moments are few and far between.
It is not often that everyone is entertained. It is not often that someone doesn't immediately need something from me. It is not often that someone isn't demanding my attention. It is not often that everyone is quiet. It is not often that my to-do list isn't towering over my head.

Yes, there is laundry to be done and bathrooms to be cleaned and appointments to be made. Yes, I have things on my to-do list that have been there for three months, but just never take priority over the more pressing tasks. Yes, I have deadlines for work and a book to read for my small group and gifts to make for new babies.

But for now, I am choosing not to do those things.
I am instead choosing to sit in the quiet. I am choosing to be thankful for the moment of rest. I am choosing to drink my coffee while it is hot. I am choosing to just be.

Macy is now sitting next to me on the couch. She is {quietly} talking to some imaginary friend while she pretends one of her toys is an ice cream cone.
Piper is still sleeping.
And my coffee is still hot.
Mom bliss.